𝙈𝙮 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧-𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝𝙩𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙠𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙙 𝙢𝙮 𝙨𝙤𝙪𝙡 (POEM OF THOUGHTS NO.1)

                                    

                                              𝙈𝙮 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧-𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝𝙩𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙠𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙙 𝙢𝙮 𝙨𝙤𝙪𝙡

I, for one, had suffered for a long time

I tried to hide it and dig deep down

But my fierce tears had finally tumbledown

I bawl my eyes out anytime I can

 

I hardly get by to gather my thoughts high

My time is ticking, but I’m lagging behind

I’m scared of losing, yet I am already defeated

My so-called "effort" is seen as my debacle

 

Why is it that I keep having deferred successes?

When all I wanted was to survive and be my best

Should I still give these some thoughts?

Or would it be better if I hit the road?

 

Do I lack the courage?

Or is my sympathy still not enough?

I just keep nodding and agreeing

How can I ever stop?

 

I had already given my life and passion

Don’t you ever just feel enough?

Do I really need to?

Why can't I just not to?

 

Do I need to be cruel just to be kind?

That “kind” figure of me you always want,

It just twists my insides within

And I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs

 

My exasperation has reached its end

I need to learn and accept reality again and again

I have no choice,

For this is the path that I have chose

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